The last few weeks have been full of changes for us. Changes that are full of emotions which turn on my natural reaction of wanting to flee (something that used to happen a lot when my brood was much younger); flee into a screen, social media, or other things that look like this. Changes like the way that we homeschool, the way that my home is run, the way that I am eating, and lots of other small things that send me into a place of wanting to escape into a quiet sanctuary...but as beautifully syncronized as life is, last night I found baby pictures that I hadn't seen in a long time, and I took this as a reminder to stay present, and stay off of devices.
As I was looking through my kid's baby pictures, and nostalgia hit me, I realized how much they've grown through the stages of our lives that have been frozen in these stills, I was reminded about how fast time flies, and how much they change in what seems like such a short amount of time - the most daunting thing of all, is that they are changing right in front my eyes.
I started then to wonder how much time do we really all have? Is it ever enough? In our fast paced lives: rush here, go there, clean this, do that, how much time am I really devoting to spending quality time with my loved ones? All of my babies' round faced smiles have been replaced with longer faced grins, and as each year goes on, I realize how the natural separation happens. How the ones who wanted to spend all day with me, are more naturally wanting to spend their time doing things other than following me around the house, and asking me ten-thousand questions. I realize that the time is slipping through and that those soft eyes that once looked at me with adoration, are now filled with worldly curiousity - and suddenly, I was reminded about the fact that the moments pass by, and that it's easy to fill them with things and to-dos and lists of things to complete - it's easy to loose sight of the magic that is happening at every turn...and last-night, I was reminded once again, that the moments that matter are the ones that we share in-between when things seem to be going haywire - and these pictures reminded me of the importance of my presence.
I was reminded to stay present because time is fleeting. I was reminded that once time is gone, that there is no way to get it back. And mostly, I am reminded that changes always happen, and all I have to do is to keep taking care of myself in the way that I've learned over the years, so that I can allow myself to be as present and aware as possible.
It's easy to get lost in the moments, and want to naturally escape when things feel rough, but for today, I want to remind you of a few things that I've come to realize over the years:
1) Everything has a season and a reason. Just because I don't understand what's happening doesn't mean that there is not a reason for it.
2) I am always learning and moving forward. Just because I don't see the value in a rough moment, does not mean that there is none.
3) The way that I behave during times of change and stress is far reaching - and has a greater impact on the times of calm.
4) All kids go through similar stages, during similar times. My job is to tune into the stage, and into how my child is processing the stage and move into it accordingly...
5) ...and the most important one of all, for me, treating myself with as much grace as I want them to be treated and I would like others to treat me through times of change, is the best medicine in the world.
During this holiday season, I want to remind you that you are always where you need to be. I want to shine a light into how fast everything goes, and I want you to take a moment to enjoy the fleeting times, that can sometimes become clouded with to-dos, lists, things and rushes. To stop, take a breath, and remember that the baby years go fast, and that one day before you know it, you'll be looking at old pictures and thinking where did the time go. But most of all, I want to remind myself, as I remind you, that changes don't always have to be so difficult - although they can be challenging - when I remember that nothing ever stays the same, and at some point I will look back at pictures, as I did last night, of now, and start to wonder where did the time go.
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