I have been going through a HUGE growth spurt over the last few months. I have been learning to love, understand, and remove from myself, the deep parts within me, that tell me that I am not worthy. That I am not important enough for something. Or the parts that lie to me, left over from childhood, that tell me that I am not right if I don't do things perfectly. I have been learning to heal myself, so that I can keep healing my kids forward.
I've loved parts of myself, that were down and hurting. The parts that I thought were unlovable. The parts that my children mirrored and magnified. Loved them deeply. Forgave them, and released them, so that I could fall in love with them them deeply within my children too.
In this process of growing Soul Centered Mama™, and helping mothers heal themselves, so that they can heal their children from within - naturally - has brought up for me, many different layers of stuff that I thought that I'd cleared. Just recently I found myself, in the throws of an epic rough moment with my three year old (what's normally considered a tantrum), where I felt something from deep within stir up into what reminded me of rage - a rage that I haven't felt for a long time, and I knew that it was my cue to go within to heal.
The truth of all of us, who work to help others align or find balance, is that we know the darkness of the other. I know this too...this is why I am called to help mothers - because I know this space well - and I feel pulled by something deeper than me to help them heal. I don't want to pretend and offer perfection, because this is not real...instead, I offer the truth of what I've gone through, and how I have changed it into something else...to give them the parts of me, that I've restored, through the depths of despair.
I've lived the despair. I know the pain. I've lived in the silent throws of self judgment and sadness. I've known the space that says you're not doing it right...to only climb out of it and say NO. There is another way. To only climb through another level...and this is OK.
In this space, where we only see on these highlight reels, too much of the glossed over pretty parts, and not enough of the real parts...today I want to sit with you, because I know where you've been. I want to sit with you. To be your mirror while you heal.
My calling is not to heal others, but to heal myself deeply, so that I can provide the space while they learn to heal themselves - because we can only really heal ourselves. To love those broken pieces within them, so that they can see that they too are worthy of love - and everything more - as they are reborn into their lives, and as I keep healing myself. It is my job, to hold a space for my mamas to love themselves deeply, with gratitude and forgiveness, to those broken childhood pieces so that they can go forward and do it for their little ones as well.
Today, I want to offer you a glimpse into this brand of healing. part of my understanding and growing from within, was learning that I am an empath and learning to understand my feelings, the feelings of others around me, and how to differentiate from them. Then going within to heal the deep hurt ones within me. Over the last few months, many mamas have come forward to me, and told me that they suspect that they are also empaths. They feel overwhelmed, overstimulated, and find it hard to control their emotions...In our NEW, and temporarily FREE membership site of Soul Centered Mama™, I speak about how to understand it, what it is, and how to block emotions that are not yours, so that you can start to understand what's going on.
If you want to book a clarity call with me you can do so HERE or, if you want to book a Soul Reading℠ with me, where I connect to the higher self of your child, yourself, or a baby in spirit, you can do so HERE.
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